hijau

recently, we were taking about our matriculation's life. you guys knw this already, the brightest moments in my life. i dont have to repeat it for hundredth time, isnt it?

anyway,when memories come around, all my friends pop out in my mind, including her.

then i decided to read her blog which i left long before my life had an 180 turn.
and then, the feeling came. again.
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manusia, bila hatinya diisi oleh sesuatu atau seseorang, once sesuatu atau seseorang itu pergi, she/he will tend to fill it with other things selalunya, people. sebab tu, bila seseorang yg break up or penah couple, selang seminggu mesti dia jumpk pengganti dia xkisah samada pengganti tu manusia atau objek. atau family. but, still they left traces in your heart, i believe.

unless, they fill it with the love of ALLAH and RASULULLAH. because they never leave you.

my heart once filled with her, then i found Allah and Rasulullah. i found light in my life.
at those time, i read her blog without any feeling.
it was wonderful without the feeling. it was like i found happiness.

then, right now, when i read the blog, the feeling comes.

oh, maybe it is because i'm far with Him now.

remember people, it's us who always getting far from Him, forget Him, but do also remember, that He never forget us, not even once. or even one second. it's us. it's always us.


p/s; no, it is not the feeling, not homo love, not even jealousy. not angry. yep also not hatred.

it is admiration.