fatin nasuha

'The man that decided to change on the 12th hours died at the 11th.'

mati itu pasti, May Allah bless her dan tempatkan Fatin Nasuha bersama orang2 beriman. (1991-2013)
dia dh selamat dari dosa akan datang, kita bagaimana??

sebelum sakit, she had told someone that she wanted to change. semoga Allah consider saat hatinya terdetik utk berubah. 




it could be me. aku takut, takut dgn dosa dosa aku.
sahabat yang baik adalah sahabat yang menegur kesalahan kita, yep. aku takut dgn dosaku akn datang, guys, tegur aku jika salah, bukan kerna niat utk tunjuk hebat or tunjuk aku salah, tapi tegurlah aku dgn kasih sayang, kerna kau sayangkan aku.
 dan berdepan, kias2 or gna medium lain mmg aku xphm. haha. if you know what i mean,

 dont beat around the bush, just tell me wahai sahabatku, "cahya petunjuk" haha.

hijau

recently, we were taking about our matriculation's life. you guys knw this already, the brightest moments in my life. i dont have to repeat it for hundredth time, isnt it?

anyway,when memories come around, all my friends pop out in my mind, including her.

then i decided to read her blog which i left long before my life had an 180 turn.
and then, the feeling came. again.
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manusia, bila hatinya diisi oleh sesuatu atau seseorang, once sesuatu atau seseorang itu pergi, she/he will tend to fill it with other things selalunya, people. sebab tu, bila seseorang yg break up or penah couple, selang seminggu mesti dia jumpk pengganti dia xkisah samada pengganti tu manusia atau objek. atau family. but, still they left traces in your heart, i believe.

unless, they fill it with the love of ALLAH and RASULULLAH. because they never leave you.

my heart once filled with her, then i found Allah and Rasulullah. i found light in my life.
at those time, i read her blog without any feeling.
it was wonderful without the feeling. it was like i found happiness.

then, right now, when i read the blog, the feeling comes.

oh, maybe it is because i'm far with Him now.

remember people, it's us who always getting far from Him, forget Him, but do also remember, that He never forget us, not even once. or even one second. it's us. it's always us.


p/s; no, it is not the feeling, not homo love, not even jealousy. not angry. yep also not hatred.

it is admiration.

of post, komen and respon

Assalamualaikum,

sebelum ak nak mula bicara, i want to apologize in advance for those who might be hurt from this post. the reason i'm writing this not to blame people or to curse on people. rasa macam xperlu tulis tp rasanya perlu jugak untuk ingtkan manusia..


perkara pertama, tentang post.

pasal org x post dan x komen dlam group pon leh jd isu. group jd mundur dan senyap disebabkan tiada orang yg post. (i was hoping someone would say 'the heck?'). berikut merupakan kemungkinan perkara tersebut berlaku:

-buat pengetahuan kamu kamu, first thing u said is, group itu akn deactivatekan, maka sudah tentu semua orang akan tidak memperdulikan apa2 noti yang keluar tentang group itu.

-kot2 x sedar, just want to tell you that, some people find it is very annoying and irritating tgk noti punya banyak just for your dumb comments and posts yang x berfaedah malah tidak perlu untuk dipostkan. so, they IGNORE.

-people didnt get the noti from the group. yes, it is me, i dunno why.

-they dont have any berfaedah thing to say or komen...so, lbih diam dr tmbh dosa, x gitu?

-diorg pernah utk berkomentar dan berpostan, tetapi dikritik keras, korg rasa diorg stil nk buat bnda tu lg? like hell no.

kalau nk suruh komen pon, tapi komen benda merapu dan merepek, xberfaedah pon, apa gunanya? komen laki perempuan sampai x jga ikhtilat, sampai melalut ke bnda yg xberfaedah lain, apa gunanya. apa harga seorang perempuan MUSLIMAH yg komen bnda melalut dgn MUSLIMIN? sampai panjang berjela, post pon, dapat noti punya bnyak, last2 rupanya bnda yg xperlu utk dilihat dan dilayan pon.

perkara kedua. tentang respon.

perkara yang berbuih buih mulut org tegur sampai sekarang x pernah2nya nk insaf. haha. respon msg. hal ni pon jd isu yg besar. i know bnda ni bnda kecik yg impaknya sgtlah besar. ok, i know that. ak pon pernah dlm keadaan begitu, terasa seperti hendak melempang manusia tersebut sbb xbls msg yg sgt penting.

TETAPI,

harus diingtkan, ak nk melempang budak tu sbb x blas bnda penting yg perlu diketahui saat yg sama sbb ianya mmbawa perubahan yg sgt besar. tp, dalam kes ini, lambat lg kot. korag tnya bnda yg entah berlaku entah tidak. benda yg laaaamaa lg nk berlaku. just try duk dlm kasut mereka. diorg ada alasan sendiri. contohnya:

-xtau tarikh tu ari apa, apakah yg dia akn buat time tu, so, diorg xtau nk blas apa. serba salah.

-XTAU samada parents diorg mengizinkan ke tidak, or program personal diorg maybe cancel, so, mana boleh respon 'xtau'

-xboleh pergi ats alasan parents x bg, tp NAK PERGI dan nk usaha pujuk parents menyebabkan xleh bgtau pda masa yg terdekat nih.

-ADA ALASAN YG MUNASABAH.

-diorg xdpt msg or x tgk fb. it is also, me.

-sgt x sure sbb sgt jauh tarikhnya. takut nk memberi jawpan INSYAALLAH sbb insyaAllah itu satu janji.

so, xperlulah kot nk judge org dgn harsh words. bukan saja2 diorg nk beralasan. diorg pon tahu tanggungjwb diorg, except lah org yg mmg btol2 sengaja xnk respon. itu lain cita. xperlulah sampai nk bergaduh bertelagah disebabkan bnda ni.

samalah dgn isu 'seen je rmai, responnya x' tuh. diorg seen n tgh memikirkan lagi apa jwpn nk respon.

n sy sukka dgn komen yg suma ni rancang Allah, respon x respon, Allah yg rncang n Allah yg pilih org tuh. sgt mature cra pemikirannya.

harapnya bnda yg ak tulis nih x jd isu la plak.

n i really hate myself because i dun have the guts to say this in front of them. i am a coward. yes.

takut, kang komen kang, kena kritik lg.