life is about choices

my future is like a dark road, i can hardly see whats ahead me. it really dark that i cant even walk properly. ii dont know where its gonna lead me to. i just walk and walk and walk with nothing in my mind. i have no idea whtas waiting me in the front, were there lights? beast animals that will eat me up, or were there someone who is smiling at me, waiting for to take her/his hand to bring me to happiness? or maybe lead me to hell (nauzubillah)? i dont know anything.i cannot go back, i cnt run away, i have to walk till the end. the end of what? my life? or the road? i dont know.. i wish i can go back to where i had to choose this road. i had two options to choose. the beginning of this road, there were two branches. but i chose the one which is the clearer road instead of the other. i wanted to choose the other, but, i dont have the key to open the gate which is seal with large lock. i could hv tried to find the key, but i didnt. its a half way already when i wonder why this road (the road that i chose) is very gloomy and dark. i cried along the way. i regretted with my decision. i couldnt accept it, i hated this road. there was no light at all, i coulndt see anything, my mind was blank. until one day, i saw a firefly. a little bit of light that show mt the way, litle by little, a group of fireflies that glow brightly came to show me the way. i was so glad. i was finally had a litlle hope that i can see the road. suddenly, i can see the road ahead. i saw two branches, again. this time the other road dont have the lock seal. but, there was thorny bushes around and along the way. i have to endure those pain along the way. i dont to make the same mistake, i dont want to be regret, this time i have the chance to correct my mistake. but i'm afraid that that way also a mistake. i'm afraid of whats waiting ahead me. should i contiue my journey? or take the other road. i cant stop walking, the brances is nearer, i cannot procrastinate anymore. which way should i choose? Ya Allah, berikan ak petunjuk yg mna takdirku yang telah kau tetapkan, yang mna satu yg terbaik utkku.. ak buntu ya Allah, tunjukkan ak ya Allah... bantulah ak dlam membuat keputusn yg btol.. ameenn