3 things

three little things happened to me today:

1. i got the news. and after i got the news, my eyes suddenly stop puckering. what is the meaning?? i hope for that. okay, tomorrow, i'll collect up my courage to call dr. Maiza. pray for me.

2. challenge accepted. i challenged myself to draw 21 pieces of craps. well, since i got back, i only finished it 5 so far. the due date is coming!

3. my bathroom door squeak itself without no one in it. i scared me to death, but when i told my mom. she laughed non-stop. why oh why? oh, its my face. she said.

life is about choices

my future is like a dark road, i can hardly see whats ahead me. it really dark that i cant even walk properly. ii dont know where its gonna lead me to. i just walk and walk and walk with nothing in my mind. i have no idea whtas waiting me in the front, were there lights? beast animals that will eat me up, or were there someone who is smiling at me, waiting for to take her/his hand to bring me to happiness? or maybe lead me to hell (nauzubillah)? i dont know anything.i cannot go back, i cnt run away, i have to walk till the end. the end of what? my life? or the road? i dont know.. i wish i can go back to where i had to choose this road. i had two options to choose. the beginning of this road, there were two branches. but i chose the one which is the clearer road instead of the other. i wanted to choose the other, but, i dont have the key to open the gate which is seal with large lock. i could hv tried to find the key, but i didnt. its a half way already when i wonder why this road (the road that i chose) is very gloomy and dark. i cried along the way. i regretted with my decision. i couldnt accept it, i hated this road. there was no light at all, i coulndt see anything, my mind was blank. until one day, i saw a firefly. a little bit of light that show mt the way, litle by little, a group of fireflies that glow brightly came to show me the way. i was so glad. i was finally had a litlle hope that i can see the road. suddenly, i can see the road ahead. i saw two branches, again. this time the other road dont have the lock seal. but, there was thorny bushes around and along the way. i have to endure those pain along the way. i dont to make the same mistake, i dont want to be regret, this time i have the chance to correct my mistake. but i'm afraid that that way also a mistake. i'm afraid of whats waiting ahead me. should i contiue my journey? or take the other road. i cant stop walking, the brances is nearer, i cannot procrastinate anymore. which way should i choose? Ya Allah, berikan ak petunjuk yg mna takdirku yang telah kau tetapkan, yang mna satu yg terbaik utkku.. ak buntu ya Allah, tunjukkan ak ya Allah... bantulah ak dlam membuat keputusn yg btol.. ameenn

about her again

its about her again, u know who. the coolest girl, midori.

anyway, recently, she went to FOSTER THE PEOPLE concert, again, FOSTER THE PEOPLE. (people, its them, oh my!!!!!!!!!!! i hate it! i hate the fact that i can never go to any concert!)

anw, she wrote in her blog about the day, and it was as awesome as it gonna be. i'm so damn jealous. but, whatever, aaaaarrrrrrghhh!!

life has no turn back, you can never go back to your youth after you've entered the adulthood. live your life to the fullest. and my youth was wasted already.

oh my...

dude, i thought you already moved on! just get over 'her'!!!!!!!!! so, please have nothing when u look at 'her' facebook! oh please, dun even look at 'her' facebook.! thats why i said, dun ever listen to boybands' songs, bitch!

sob sob... oh heart, please listen to my mind, dun listen to my feeling.
o Allah, if 'she' wasnt for me, please, please get rid of those feeling, cover my heart please. astaghfirullah...

lets ask for His forgiveness, guys! (^___^)

'baby, you light up my world like nobody else, you dont know you beautiful, thats what makes you beautiful_one direction.'

princess enough??

damn boyband song!




" ya Allah, kau hijabkanlah pandangan dan hatiku dari lelaki2 yang bukan kau takdirkan untukku (ustz Afriza, 2008)"